not good enough

you are constantly making me feel like im not good enough, like my ideas are crap and my reasoning behind my thinking is stupid. "grow up" "you're an idiot" "back off"

I don't think anyone has ever shot down my attempts so brutally...I might be trying to hard...but at least I'm trying...do you know anyone else that would fight for you this hard and go through the barrage of constant corrections and put downs you throw my way?

I'm putting up with this is because of how much I love you. I love you so much that despite the tears you force out of my eyes on an almost nightly basis, I wont give up...I'm fighting for you and youre saying im overdoing it...like our relationship isn't on the line...

Excuse me for planning our time...but do you know any other guy who would even give it that much thought? Any other guy who would care so much about the time you share that he don't want absolutely anything to go wrong? A guy who love you so much that no matter how many times you tell him he's doing something wrong, he keeps trying...do you know any other guy like that, do you know ANY OTHER GUY THAT EVEN REMOTELY GIVE A SHIT AS MUCH AS I DO!? :'-( would you rather I didn't try at all? would you rather I gave it nothing? am I really that much of a pain to you that I'm going to drag out the 2 months that you AREN'T going to see me??? am I really that bad? I'll tone it down... I'll do whatever you say, I want you that badly. I truly do.