Sweet Tides

So...uhm...why am I here?
Why am I in the same position I was in a long time ago?

Tides.

With each pull there has to be a release, letting go of what has a hold of you. It allows you to flow forward. It's what causes the tides. The push and pull of the sea. In the same way the ocean moves, so do we. We're pulled in different directions by conflicting decisions we make.

My biggest fear is always not knowing. Not knowing what's going to happen, what has already happened, or even misunderstanding what's happening now. I feel like I'm always caught off-guard by the tides. They always creeps up on me like something that wanted to surprise me.

I'm not sure what's worse, being caught off-guard, or knowing it was coming. I felt pulled in one direction by a decision that I was making. But in a sense, in not making a decision against it, I had already made a decision to go with it. It's confusing. As of late, there's a new unexpected tide washing up new things on shore. It's keeping me entertained really... intrigued. It's dangerous when you swim with a tide. The tide could pull back and you could be left out in the middle of the ocean to drown.

So what is it about this tide that keeps me coming back for a swim? Endangering my comfortable wall. Who knows? Maybe it will take me out, too far for me to swim back to safety. But maybe...just maybe it will take me somewhere. Somewhere different. Somewhere out of my comfort zone. Somewhere I needed to be, but was too caught up to notice.

"Sweet Tides" - Thievery Corporation <-------- Look it up, you might just find music will change your life.